a mad hermit's diary

menhera kei

  • the cost of homelessness that no one talks about

    one thing that no one ever talks about homelessness is how it changes your relationship with permanence and “stuff and things” as i like to call it. having been functionally homeless for most of my adult life (my housing was based mostly on interdependence or good will, meaning my housing was always in someone else’s…

  • why i’m recovery neutral-apathetic

    when people hear “recovery neutral” or “recovery apathetic” they immediately assume that the person means that they simply don’t want to get better or maybe that they actively want to worsen their disorders. however, in my experience, those who are against recovery usually aren’t against it for flippant reasons. most of the people i’ve met…

  • the unspoken question behind self-harm

    i began self-harming in infancy, before i could speak. before i could conceptualise what self-harm meant, my body and nervous system were already primed to receive regulation in the form of pain. this trend continued as i got older and did escalate slightly from hitting and biting to cutting, but the key factor is that…

  • am i… a landmine?

    so i’ve been delving into japanese mental health subcultures lately, mostly because i’ve been hearing about menhera and jirai kei in my circles and i’ve come across the term “landmine” used both as a self-descriptor and as a pejorative. for those who don’t know, the term “landmine” in japan refers to a woman with a…

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