jirai kei
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the unspoken question behind self-harm
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2–3 minutesi began self-harming in infancy, before i could speak. before i could conceptualise what self-harm meant, my body and nervous system were already primed to receive regulation in the form of pain. this trend continued as i got older and did escalate slightly from hitting and biting to cutting, but the key factor is that…
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my mom is finally getting her wish, i’m getting new clothes that fit and look nice
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1–2 minutesthis may come as surprise or it may not, but shopping for clothes isn’t my favourite activity. i know that’s basically heresy in the circles i’m most active in, where shopping is a primary coping mechanism for the immense amount of pain and stress the world foists upon us. it goes without saying that retail…
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am i… a landmine?
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1–2 minutesso i’ve been delving into japanese mental health subcultures lately, mostly because i’ve been hearing about menhera and jirai kei in my circles and i’ve come across the term “landmine” used both as a self-descriptor and as a pejorative. for those who don’t know, the term “landmine” in japan refers to a woman with a…